不知道看了多少遍,一直存在盘里,一次次看着它不舍得删。今天又重温了一遍。实在觉得应该弄点东西出来。要认真写来又实在是工程浩大。电影的语言很美(画面和音乐都很美),这两封情书更是经典,于是一字一句地打了下来。DearestOnegin,Iwritetoyou.It’sallIcando.AndnowIknowit’sinyourpowertopunishmypresumingheart.Yetifyouhaveonedropofpity,you’llnotabandonmetomyunhappyfate.IaminlovewithyouandImusttellyouthisormyheart,myheartwhichbelongstoyouwillsurelybreak.I’dhaveneverrevealedmyshametoyou,ifjustonceaweekImightseeyou,exchangeawordortwo,andthenthinkdayandnightofonethingalonetillournextmeeting.Butyouareunsocialtheysaythatthecountryboreyou.Isittrue?Doesthecountryboreyou?SometimesIwonderthatyouevervisitedus.Why?Ineverknowyouorknowthisagonyandfever.Iknowthatallmylife’sbeenleadingmetothisunionwithyou.Irecognizeyouatfirstsightandknewwithcertaintyandsaytomyself:“it’shim,he’scome.”Helpme.Resolvemydoubts.Perhapsthisisallnonsense,emptiness,adelusion,andquiteanotherfateawaitme.Imagineit.I’mherealone,halfoutofmymind.Idreadtoreadthisover.Mysecretlonging.IknowthatIcantrustyourhonor,thoughIfeelfaintfromshameandfear.Tatyana------------------------------------------------------------Tatyana,Icanforeseethebitterscornblazingatmefromyourproudeyes,whenyouhavereadmysecretsorrow.Whenwefirstmet,throughchance,Isawtenderness,likeashootingstar,butdidnotdaretoputmyfaithtoit.ThenLenskyfell,whichpartedusstillfurther.ThenItoremyheartawayfromeverythingitloved,rootless,estrangedfromallIthoughtthatlibertyandpeacewouldserve,insteadofhappiness.Mygod!HowwrongIwas!HowI’vebeenpunished.No.Daybydaytobewithyou,followyoueverywhere,alivetoeverysmile,eachmovementofyoureyes,dwelluponyoursoul’sperfection,listentoyourvoice,growfaintwithyearning.Thatisbliss.AndI’mcutofffromit.Mytimeisshortandeachdayandhourisprecious.YetIjustdragmyselfaroundinboredom.Everydayadesert,unless,whenIwakeup,Iknowthedaywillbringaglimpseofyou.Ifyoubutknewtheflamesthatburninme,whichIattempttobeatdownwithmyreason.Butletitbe.Icannotstruggleagainstmyfeelingsanymore.Iamentirelyinyourwill.Onegin